HEDI'S DIARY
2/1/12 10:40pm
I'm in a good mood. I've accomplished alot in January, and I'm looking forward to staying on track in February. I don't have some new-found attitude or anything. I'm just using easy axioms to do a little more each day. I want to see an unmistakable difference between this year and the last in my life. If you aren't moving ahead, you're falling behind - right?
After a pretty tumultuous 2011, I've decided to get back to what I do best. I'm a good songwriter and performer, and I have a knack for making a dollar or 2. I'm happy, I'm being a good girl, and I'm working on my music. Life is good.
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1/1/12 12:18pm
As the late, great, Michael Jackson said, "This is it!" This is my coming out party. I feel like an award winning rose ready to bloom in all her glory for the first time. Of course roses have thorns too. I think God put thorns on roses to stop people long enough to force their appreciation of His delicate creation.
We are all delicate creations. We should all take more time to respect our fleeting, fragile, beauties - within and without ourselves. I have ZERO TOLERANCE for people who don't get this.
Some people are so self-serving that they cannot see themselves in the mirror. Don't get me wrong. We are all self-serving at times. It is our nature. Being self-serving around those you profess to care about is uncool. Lying, cheating, stealing, etc. Let's try to be about more goodness this year.
If you're a smoker, try to quit. If you're a drinker, try not to drink as much. if you're a lover, spread the love! Let's just all try to be better people. It'll make the world a better place. In Gulliver's Travels, the Rajah on the floating island of Laputa picks all the flowers to study them and leaves behind a barren wasteland instead of the beautiful gardens that once were.
If you're going to be a playa, there are consequences. One day you'll wake up alone with your insanity in a barren wasteland where there once were all beautiful flowers. Sometimes it's best if you just look at the beauty of the roses in their natural splendor instead of picking and killing them all everywhere you go.
God will get you back if you don't straighten up and fly right. All He has to do is have one of those broken roses mention that she's pregnant, and it's a girl playa. Happy New Year. H
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12/4/11 10:00am
I am not looking forward to writing this entry this month. There are a few people out there just waiting to see what I will talk about. Will I talk about the cheater I've fallen in love with? No. Will I talk about you Chris? No. Instead, I'll give myself an early Christmas present and not say anything at all. Happy Holidayzzzz.
H
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10/29/11/ 1:22pm
Things have changed over the years. I remember when all of my diary entries were at 3 and 4 in the morning, because I'd be up that late working on my sites. I guess I've gotten better at time management and designing. So what gives?
A very interesting man has a crush on me. Of course, I'm into another guy who plays too many games and doesn't want to do the right thing, Why is that? Why are women always attracted to the wrong types? Is it socialization? Who knows. I'm too busy to take anything too seriously, or am I? And now for the 1970ish love song reference.
Okay everyone. On the count of three. A 1 & a 2 & a...
Love. Exciting and new. Come aboard.
It's expecting you.
The Loveboat soon will be making another run.
The Loveboat promises something for everyone.
Set a course for adventure you mind on a new romance...
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10/1/11 4:31pm
Things are good. Things are excellent. I'm finally getting my ducks in a row. Things that I thought were straight up impossible last year are quite feasible now. The sites are manageable. My achilles is recovering beautifully. It's football season. I'm recording at home. It's just a truly beautiful time. There is one thing that has not returned to its former status. It's this journal.
I used to put some pretty personal stuff on this page. I didn't care who read it. The truth is the truth. However, certain situations and circumstances have forced me to sanitize the crap out of this page. It's amazing who reads this stuff. You would be shocked and delighted if you only knew.
In either case, I feel like I've been robbed! Why shouldn't I be able to tell it like it is on my own site? There's got to be a happy medium, and I'll find it. Just you wait and see.
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9/2/11 12:21am
My birthday is over. It was very uneventful in that I didn't go out and paint the town. That's kind of hard to do in the middle of the week. I'm saving the festivities for Labor Day Weekend. Thank you to all well wishers.
I went to see Dr. Holt last week, and he stunned me when he said I'd have to endure another surgery as soon as possible. It took me a week to get over the shock. The majority of the 'hard part' is done, but there is a small issue that Dr. Holt believes would be best corrected. He promises that my recovery period will be much shorter this time around.
I'm still busy with work, but I will be out and about to enjoy myself before I return to crutches. Until next month.
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8/1/11 7:34pm
How goes it? For me, things are okay. I'm readjusting to the insanity that is work, and I'm reconnecting with some old bandmates too. I remember working with a V.P. years ago who gave me the longest, most boring speech ever about time management. I think I was daydreaming out the window as he went over the finer points of effectively scheduling my workload and my life. I nodded my head with the obligatory uh hums until he was done, then I returned to my office never giving another thought to what he had relayed that afternoon.
Well I'm here to tell you some years later, that I now clearly remember the old man's words. Time management is essential! At the pace my life is running now, I would never accomplish anything without using expert time management skills everyday.
I'm no expert at it, but I am getting better. That's what it takes to make dreams come true. Let's see, websites, work, music, social calendar... It's enough to make you insane or at least insanely dedicated.
Don't forget to wish me a happy birthday!
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7/14/11 4:49pm
Man oh man! I'm starting to enjoy the process of updating once more. it's been an uphill battle. It brings me great pleasure to introduce the new photo gallery. I have so many pictures just sitting around my place that I'd love to share with you. Personally, I'm doing much better too. I've been through alot, and I have alot more yet to get through. I've just flat-out decided not to stress about it.
I'm still here, and I'm going to make the best of it. My sister shot some video of me, but she and I are having trouble sending it. When I get it, I'll load it too. I miss you all so very much. I cannot wait to see your smiling faces again. There are a select few of you (you know who you are) who have never let me rest no matter what! You've always checked in on me whether I updated or not. I hope you realize how much that means to me!
Today is literally the most gorgeous day of the year according to the weatherman, so I don't want to spend all of it in front of the computer screen. Until next month...
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6/3/11 8:47pm
I just can't believe my luck. Everytime I turn around, something else unbelievable occurs. You have to be severely upbeat to endure times like these, so I have decided to be just that. I met a man who I fell madly in love with only to find out he wasn't worth the first glance in the end. Some people have hearts so cold. I'm glad I'm not one of them. So I'm over it. I have bigger fish to fry.
I've severed my achilles tendon. I literally cannot walk. I intend to spend the next few months or however long it takes to get well. No ill-intended loverboy will get in the way of that. I'm off of work, so I can get back to what I love to do. I'm going to put the finishing touches on my compilation. So that' all I'm willing to divulge for now. My most sincere thanks to all well wishers. You words mean more than you might imagine. Until next time.
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5/2/11 2::31pm
I have to be honest. I've been regretting this update for awhile now. It's time consuming, and it just so happens to be absolutely gorgeous outside. Even so, I edit and type.
I am in flux right now. I have an overwhelming need to change my surroundings. It's not necessarily the best time for me to be moving or changing circumstances, but I feel compelled to do so. Maybe it's the weather.
I played a few songs from OTBP for a local friend a few weeks ago. The feedback was good, but I still won't be happy until the last note is recorded. In the meantime, I put up with a grueling day job, and well...I won't get into the rest of it.
I still have tons more editing to do before I can call this update complete. I took a few pictures while on vacation. I'll add a few on Genxeffect. The rest will eventually appear on Facebook. I'll move them soon.
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3/1/11 5:31pm
I literally just walked out of work. I love my job, but it can be stressful. Today wasn't a stressful day. It was a day that kept me daydreaming more than paying attention to what went on around me.
I'm feeling the lovebug lately. I guess I'm in love with the process of falling in love. Spring is just around the corner filled with new opportunities to do just that - fall in love.
We'll see if the blooming of the flowers will leave an impression on my personal life.
In other news - I'm ready to record, but I have no idea of any local studios that I can work with. I'm going to go talk to Mike McHenry. Maybe he'll be able to lead me in a new and exciting direction.
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1/15/11 3:28pm
There are a few things about this entry that you should remember. First, today is game day! The Ravens are about to teach the Steelers a lesson. That means I have about 20 minutes to finish updating here and Genxeffect.com too. Silly - I know - it is my world.
I'm in the mood for love. I've gotten over the melodrama of 2010, and embraced the hot-to-trot sizzle of 2011. I've started dating, and I'm loving it! I haven't smiled and laughed so much in ages. I'm not ready to reveal him yet, so you just have to check back to see if this mystery man can make it until summer. GO RAVENS! |
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